Hey Dear Readers,

I know i take breaks from the blog and for that i am sorry. One thing you all don’t know is i have Generalized Anxiety Disorder and with medicine and therapy and gaming it all helps keep me center.

However i feel like another major factor is my gaming group. They are friends across time zones but they are ones who along with my family i always update on my medical saga.

I know people say that watching our favorite shows is a side of accepting and coping with trauma and though i can say there is some truth to it but, for me another way i deal is by playing my games.

Be it ESO, FALLOUT 76, or something else you fall into that world you make that character and you start your path. Yes you can do it alone but being with friends is part of what makes gaming such a wonderful hobby.

G.A.D makes me worry and regardless of the situation my mind when it was really bad would always jump to the worst possible situation even if logically i know it wasn’t possible or likely to happen. Phone calls, emails, personal calls it was at its worst crippling with me having to screen calls just to call them back so i could mental prepare myself to be on a call and talk to myself logically off the ledge of crazy not likely to happen situations.

Gaming settles my mind down and allows me to hone in and focus without the distraction of needing to answer the phone, emails popping up or needing to handle a fire or curveball from work. I know when i press a button something will happen be it intetacting with an item or jumping or using a spell / weapon etc. Gaming holds few surprises.

Maybe this is nearly 7am rambling but maybe this is something someone needs to read. I hope you all know regardless of your mental health or health in general its a process and a journey that never ends. That is okay though. Talk to your doctors, therapist, change meds or dosage to see if something else works is all okay to do.